Passion Vs Security: The American Dream In Disguise

You!
You work all night,
And when you work, you don’t feel all right.
And when,
When things stop feeling all right.
And everything is all right.

‘Cos we will never listen to your rules, no.
We will never do as others do, no.
We know what we want and we get it from you.
We do what we like and we like what we do!

That excerpt from Andrew WK’s “Party Hard” pretty much explains my current mood.

I’ve been in Mental Kombat since I graduated high school, going up against my passions with my need for security. I feel trapped. I want to grow as a person, but I feel that I’m being held backfrom my goals.

At first, I blamed my parents. Living in the Midwest, I grew up in a working-class environment where you work or you’re considered a bum. I knew that working was important, but I felt like I was doing something wrong.

Turns out that “something wrong” was not following my passions. So I sat down and tried to figure out what I was passionate about. I want to do a lot of things.

I want to learn Japanese, become a voice actor, write manga, play guitar, sing, write songs, ride my bike, travel the world, meet interesting people, invent things, and grow as a person.

I also want to have a girlfriend who I’m totally in to. I want to have kids, but not until I’m older and ready to settle down.

So how do I follow all of my passions and still make end’s meet? I’m still trying to find the answer, because the answer is different for every person. There is no DEFINITIVE answer to that question and there never will be because we are all different. We follow different paths. We live different lives. We need to find the solution that works for us and not the solution that society THINKS is right.

My local community is incredibly working-class. If you want something, you have to work for it. If you still can’t get what you want, work harder until you get it. That mindset has its pros and cons.

Pros: it strongly discourages laziness and promotes action.
Cons: it’s too narrow minded and adverse to alternate means of making an income.

I’ve been trying to make an income with this blog for a couple months now and everyone thinks that it won’t really go anywhere because of my current LACK of income via this blog. I know that it may take months, hell even years before I really start seeing a cashflow here. Because this is a personal blog, I probably won’t get a lot of traffic.

However, if I incorporate a niche into my personal blog, then I might see higher traffic and thus, better cashflow. For example, if I were to review anime in one post and talk about what I did today in another, I would still tell people about my day AND about an anime series that people wanna see if it’s good or bad and why. There is the issue with topic inconsistency (going from anime to Magic: The Gathering), but I think it’ll be fine if I categorize my posts. I plan on going through ALL of my posts and categorizing them so you guys can better filter out what you want to and don’t want to read about.

Getting back to the working man’s mentality, I find it to be similiar to slave driving. Nobody really wants to work, but they have to if they wanna live comfortably. There are too many ridiculous rules and regulations that keep us from doing what we want to do. I don’t have a problem following the law in most cases, but to add more laws to break our free will just pisses me off! I think of myself as an independent thinker, a passive rebel. I’m not the kind of guy who’ll state his problems out loud, but rather, the guy who quietly breaks the rules because he doesn’t believe in them or thinks they’re unnecessary.

If I were truely a working man-slave, I would not find anything wrong with tedious labor that only gives me a small piece-of-a-piece of the pie. I would much rather do what I wanna do and earn money by following my passions, utilizing my talents, and working for myself and not as an easily replaceable cog in the work machine.

Some people think that because I don’t want to work that I’m lazy. Far from it! I do wanna work; it’s just that I wanna do it for myself and not for someone else. I wanna earn money because I’m posting good content or helping someone willingly, not because I’ll get fired if I don’t.

Sorry for the long rant, but I really needed to air and clarify some things that have been on my mind for a long time. Will this be the last time you hear about them? Probably not. However, I’m always moving one step away from a life of slavery, one day at a time.

TheAndySan

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